I guess here’s a little update on my life since the last time I roamed the Tumblr scene was a month ago:
It’s time for finals.
There’s a wind chill warning for the next couple of days.
My eyes are dry as fuck.
I really don’t know how to feel about the fact that I’ve been fed by a silver spoon my entire life. Don’t get me wrong, I’m completely thankful that I have my family there for me, but I really just haven’t got the chance to face the real struggles of growing up just yet.
As ironic as it may seem, I want to go against what is seemingly the “impossible” for once and overcome it. I want to grow up to be that “grown man” my parents want but are keeping away from me.
Its definitely a troubling experience when certain bits of your past decide to come back to haunt you.
Makes life feel like it is a shitty bandaid that just can’t seem to heal that damn wound.
Be thankful it hurts
It is always better to be half full
If it hurts
It means you are alive.
Sudden realization that I am actually content with everything that’s going on in my life right now.
My thought on my first day at college?
I guess only having one lecture today just felt like I was at a Timeshare presentation. It was so similar that I even got some sort of incentive at the end (for my sake, it was free pizza). Other than that, I guess the pace that college provides for me will eventually kick in. The tears will flow out onto my textbooks eventually. Just the calm before the storm.
Oh I did get a wristband today.
People approach life differently. For me, I’m often the analytical but laissez-faire type of fella. Please don’t think that I have attitude issues just because I have no drive to accomodate the needs of others if it is not of immediate or absolute need. Furthermore, please understand that your tongue can just easily defile the best of your intents. “Hopeless” and “lost cause” simply motivates me to lose a far more level of respect I have for you. I am willing to grow… but fuck. I’ve lost my trail of thought.
This has been a bad attempt at a rant.